Day 10: Something needs to change...

I need a new motivation.... cause what I'm doing right now... isn't working. The most productive thing I've done this week is play "tennis  with a couple friends for an hour or so. Other than that, I've done nothing. Don't get me wrong, this post isn't about putting myself down. This is about me coming to the realization that I need to push myself because this is going to be harder than I thought it was going to be. It's almost comical because every day I tell myself, once it gets a little darker and cooler outside, you are going to go outside and run! And then 10 o'clock comes around and I realize I'm sitting on the coach on pintrest while my dad makes me a strawberry ice cream smoothie. I want the smoothie but I know I shouldn't have the smoothie... but can I really just tell my dad I don't want it when he went through the trouble of making it and pouring it into a glass just for me? 

On another note, I really want to get a BodyMedia band. I had one for a couple of months and it seemed to help. I was conscious of what I was doing and sometimes, it was even a competition between me and my mom to see who could burn the most calories or get the most vigorous activity... She won most of the time because she's a aerobic teacher but oh well... I've been looking for them on ebay and I haven't won one yet but I'm still looking. I would love to get one of the core or link ones but those, of course, cost more. I guess I'll just settle for the old version.